Some of you will already know that i have broken up with lauren. The reasons for this were not selfish or of any angry intent. I have had many things that have come up in the past few days that are challenging me to the length of my sanity. I nearly lost my dad from a major seisure that has ssemed to rear its ugly head again and i have been helping him through what he is now going through. i am also needed by my parents for a custody issue with my stepbrothers, which may not seem like much but the details i have been sworn for discretion or risk being sued. Problems have also started with my grandfather again. Now school and work will be added to this. I would not be able to comit and devote myself to a relationship with anyone, and if i was to i would not be able to do anything like going out or just talk on the phone. This would be unfair and i would feel guilty doing this. i could not hurt lauren or put her through that. now i was given an ultimatim and i had to choose the lesser of pains. i chose to break up with lauren rather than cause her more pain from an unhealthy relationship in the future. I believe that her senior year should be great and fun and i will not be the lead wieght that ties her down. even though it hurts for me and her i believe i am doing what is right for both parts. I should not have to priortize thing before a relationship. I will always be friends with lauren,even though that may seem impossible. i believe laurne is wonderful, talented, and smart. I couldn't put anyone through this.

Some of you might be angry at me and i know that i asked for some cause for anger. but i hope those will understand soon enough and i hope that eventually you all can forgive me for the immense pain i caused